So Who Am I?  I’m just a girl, clinging to the age of 39 J, getting divorced w/ 2.5 YO twins.  Niiice!  Yeah, that really wasn’t what I had in mind.   Many people don’t think of a 39 YO female as a girl, but that’s me.  Mostly I feel like a, don’t laugh, 29 YO girl. I mean girl versus – mother, woman, mentor, nurturer, etc.  Oh, don’t get me wrong I am all those things too and then some, but mostly, I’m just a girl. The part of me that goes beyond being Jacob & Emma’s Mommy (JEMS). And that’s who’s writing this blog.  Why am I writing?  Because I have to get it all out.  Someone once told me I had a lot of energy in my writing, so much to say.  So true, So true. And you all are the lucky ones who get to read it all, if you choose. J 

I have two miracle babies, literally the product of God’s ability to answer prayers & grant those of us who deserve so little the most amazing things… Jacob & Emma Grace were born at 27 weeks.  Translation for the guys:  They were born 6 months into the pregnancy and normal is 9 months.  If there is ever a doubt as to whether or not God still performs miracles in this day & age, rest assured it is true because I look at two of them each & every day!

 The Kiss - Dec 07  Pebbles & BamBam - Oct 07

Here’s the balance of my first post, just to catch you up on what started this whole thing… 

This is what I don’t know…

  • I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up…
  • I don’t know if I will be alone forever or love again…
  • I don’t know if I really know Christ as I should…
  • I don’t know if I will ever get it right…
  • I don’t know how to write a blog, or really just write…
  • I don’t know how I’m going to support 2 kids…
  • I don’t know if there is life Beyond JEMS!…
  • I don’t know what I will write about tomorrow…

Here’s what I do know…

  • I know I want to write, paint, learn, love & grow everyday and recapture passions from my past that have been oppressed for too long.
  • I know that the man department will be what God wants it to be, I’ve messed up twice; this time He’s choosing & He just may give me a pass
  • I know that I want to know Christ better
  • I know that I will fail and succeed over and over again and that’s ok
  • I know that I will constantly use spell check and grammar check & still not get it right (so please be patient)
  • I know that I will find a way to support my family. I’m a pretty smart girl – MBA in Global Mgt & all.
  • I know that I will make a life Beyond JEMS!
  • I know that whatever it is…. I will definitely write tomorrow….

 Will you come along with me to see what I write & discover this girl’s life Beyond JEMS!?   





18 thoughts on “Me…

  1. Amy, I will say that you can express you feeling through writing. I think what you are doing is wonderful. If you wrote all of this in a diary, how would could inspire others. I will be reading……

  2. Hey Amy,

    Thanks for the mints and water and encouragement on Tuesday.

    My blog is underway, but I have a long way to go on the design front.

    I’m curious, how does everyone get their blog headers designed and made? Any tips on that you can share?


  3. Found my way here today. I find myself reading and getting caught in your story. Thank you for sharing yourself with your readers.

  4. Thanks for the link Amy! Your blog is one of my favorites to read. I’m inspired by your willingness to surrender everything to God. I say I am, but everyday I get little reminders that I’m not as surrendered as I should be. God’s grace to you and your family!

  5. Hi again!! Sorry I couldn’t click on your link to email you…the comment you sent me didn’t have your email either so here I am on this post!!! This is Kari or “Kate” from Just Another Day in Paradise…I would LOVE to add you to my blogroll, girl! My pleasure….thanks for adding me! I look forward to reading your story…and getting to know you better. Thanks so much for what you shared with me…I know we’ll be chatting more!! Have a wonderful weekend!!!! God bless! 🙂

  6. I just now am getting around to reading this part of your blog. We share many of the same sentiments. Especially in the man dept. I’ve got you linked on my blog, you are one of my favorites to read.

  7. I just now am getting around to reading this part of your blog. We share many of the same sentiments. Especially in the man dept. I’ve got you linked on my blog, you are one of my favorites to read.

  8. wonderfully written and very frank

    I dont think we ever know if I will be alone forever or love again…

    thats just how it works we can although have a positive outlook and make it happen if we want to



  9. Dear Jems,
    I realize you have much on your mind right now and I’m sending you strength and courage to get through this. I was wondering if you would be interested in sharing your life after divorce story on my blog? Please email me and I can share more details of what is involved.


  10. If you seek Him with ALL your heart, you will find Him! It is His promise that cannot be broken. Read His word, and live it everyday. God bless and keep the faith!

  11. Hi Amy. I came to your blog through your post on Michael Hyatt’s blog ( Your comments inspired me to find out “who this girl is!” You seem to have some compelling experience that I believe could be incredibly valuable, both to me and to individuals and corporations on this great continent and the others. I for one would love to ‘pick your brain’ and glean some value from your experiences. Let me know if that would be a possibility that could turn into a reality… Thanks Amy.

  12. I don’t quite understand your rant about Team in Training other than to complain and vent about something that ultimately is an organization that is here to help others. Directing these comments to their national office rather than posting them online would probably be a better way to go. Just know…any negative impact takes away from the other people than may perhaps not join because of your rant…thus less fundraising for LLS. If you are comfortable playing a part in taking away from something that is ultimately to help save peoples lives..then by all means…please, keep you post going….we certainly wouldn’t want to help.

  13. Hi there! My name is Cameron Von St. James and I had a quick question for you & was wondering if you could please email me when you have a free moment. Thanks! I really hope to hear from you soon and appreciate you taking the time. ☺ cvonstjames AT gmail DOT com

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